Basically, I keep on telling myself that your friends are right. They know what is best for you. They know what is right and good for your condition but I forgot I have my own feelings and sense of humor. Maybe some are telling me you should have a regret. You should not let this happened coz you are now suffering. You are still attach to yesterday and can't move forward. I guess keeping your feelings truly lead into a disaster. So my best advice is tell what you want to say to the person who is really special for you.
Maybe, he really wants this to happen so let it be. :) I should let what I am feeling right now to die and be forgotten. Well, I can say it is hard but I keep on trying it. It is for better and things will be complicated if I interupt. I should stop dreaming and believing taht yesterday is better. I should stop this hopeless feeling and should be happy with what I have now and don't look back on yesterday. But the big question here is how ? How can I ? How can you delete those memorable memories? When It is already part of your life? I bet time will heal this and time will come that I already left everything behind. :)
I treasure what we have right now we may not be matched. But when someone hurt him I will still be at his side. :) Maybe it really meant to be that I should feel this pain to learn. And may one day meet the one who won't leave and hurt me. :) I should be a positive thinker that everyything happen for a reason. This maybe only a challenge to test my strength.
I thank this person for all those memories that we shared. It may not have a big impact to others but to us, it changed us a lot. We changed and have our own paths now. No looking back no violent reactions just be calm and accept everything. Maybe I am feeling this because I realized that now I am not the apple of his eyes.
I thank all those persons who shared their advices to me such as; Majo, Renz, Margx, Rhod, Karen, Yonina and Aldous. They made me realize that I should not look back and I should not feel the pain. :) Majo told me that I should forget it and move forward it is hard but she'll be right there to help me recover. Rhod may told some words that snapped me that's the cause of my changed of mood but it is real, it is true. maybe I am also the reason why this is happening but I like her advice that this feeling must die. :) Renz, may not kow everything but in the right time in the right mood I can tell this all to her. She may not agree with what I felt so I will tell everything to her as soon as possible. Margx adviced me to have a distance with *toot* I should not repeat my mistake. :) Karen gave a big impact to me. She gave me all the words that gave me the comfort and enlightenment. :) She told me to choose keep what i am feeling and continuously be hurt that may affect everything or leave everything behind and recover. :) Yonina also gave an insipring message to me. She may not tell it to me earlier but It is important to me. She told me that I should treasure what we have right now. And be happy with what is happening right now. Enchong Dee won't leave us ! yeahh. :p
And speacially to Aldous who leave a great inspiring message. I can only hear advices from booys often so I treasure his advice to me. :) He told me that I should not have regrets anyway even if you have regrets it can never change everything. And I should not compare but he gave a compliment to me. haha ! And it is better to be friends than nothing. :)
So, thanks for listening. Now, I feel so good. :D
Everything is back to normal. And I am now 99% OKAY !
My songs in playlist which reflects my emotions right now. :)
- Come back to me by David Cook
- Why by Avril Lavigne
- Cry by Rihanna
- Pretend by Secondhand Serenade
- Get over it by Avril Lavigne
- Where are you now by Justin Bieber
- Antukin by Rico Blanco
